Our son Maxton was diagnosed with left-sided congenital diaphragmatic hernia (CDH) at his 19 week ultrasound. Maxton was born on 3/3/09 at Vanderbilt University. He fought hard for 18 days but earned his wings on 3/21/09. Maxton was an inspiration to many during his brief time on earth and has forever changed our lives. If your child is diagnosed with CDH, please feel free to contact us. Maxton may no longer live here on earth, but he will live forever in our hearts...

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Sunday, May 3, 2009

2 months!

It's so hard to believe that my little man would be two months old today! I miss him so much. I've grown up so much over the past 2 months. I wonder what Maxton would look like today. What color would his eyes be? How much hair would he have? Would he find mommy and daddy as funny as we think he would? Would he have cute little baby giggle? I am sure he would. I am sure that he is up in heaven entertaining everyone with his cute little antics and spitfire personality. It makes me want to have a "day pass" to heaven just to watch him and all his new friends play. 2 months old.... it really feels like yesterday that I was in labor with him. I was so excited to meet him, yet terrified that I would be here two months later with only memories. I never knew I could love this much. Being a mom is different then I thought. As mother's day approaches it seems surreal... I am a mother, yet never truly got to experience motherhood. I changed his diaper a couple of times... got to see him open his eyes only twice...really my only act of true motherhood was letting him go. I made the hardest choice any mother truly has to make. Actually I wasn't really given much of a choice, anyone could have seen it was time. I just miss him. Today is a bittersweet day. I am not sad, despite the general tone of this post. I am reflective. I am celebrating my son, my two month old son! No matter where he lives, he will always be mine. My baby, my sweet little man. Happy 2 month old birthday sweetie! Mommy loves you and misses you...


Ashworth Family said...

Happy 2 Month Birthday Maxton! Your mommy is awesome.

Liz and Shane said...

I am thinking of you and have you in our prayers.

Jaime's World said...

Wow, Ashley, I'm just getting caught up on posts. Thanks so much for the extra prayers for Jaime...hopefully, surgery will be a "go" this week!

We'd also like to wish Maxton a Happy 2 Month Birthday! He is ALWAYS on our minds! Honestly, it's hard to look at Jaime and not think of Maxton. These little ones are such troopers when it comes to all they have to go through.
I wish for you some much deserved peace. I will not pretend to be know what it's like in your shoes, but I understand the roller coaster of this disease. Hang in there, be well and know that we're thinking of you!


Michael and Elizabeth Reeve said...

Happy 2 month birthday Maxton! Ashley you continue to be an inspiration & your strength is amazing. You're the best Mummy Maxton could have been given.

You're in our prayers.

Mike & Beth xxx