tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-272166488914759029.post5884753720193942854..comments2023-10-29T02:41:30.197-07:00Comments on Maxton David Standifer: Rambling On.Maxton's Mommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02582713864323407882noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-272166488914759029.post-32258506037399505712009-04-09T17:37:00.000-07:002009-04-09T17:37:00.000-07:00We grieve our hopes and dreams for our children as...We grieve our hopes and dreams for our children as well as them too. Because I can promise you your thoughts for them - to love music or work out - well they have their own personalities! But you love them for it any way.<BR/><BR/>I hate this and I hated hearing it when I was where you were - but in time - you heal but you never forget. There is always pain - but you get used to it and learn from it. <BR/><BR/>As for what our angels now - they inspire us, they love us - keep your eyes, mind and heart open - they come to us in some amazing ways. That I promise.<BR/><BR/>Peace,<BR/>ElizabethElizabethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16490413342578432553noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-272166488914759029.post-11484987673596024142009-04-07T06:14:00.000-07:002009-04-07T06:14:00.000-07:00I know exactly what you are talking about. I do p...I know exactly what you are talking about. I do pretty well during the day and when it comes time to go to bed, my mind begins to race. I think of all things that I had planned for Addison and now I have empty arms and a lonely heart. I know that this is how it is supposed to be and I will find the reason in time. I also know that you are a very strong and amazing woman and will get through this and also have your ""ah" moment when all this makes sense.Marionhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12185505479780333695noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-272166488914759029.post-69726611593465837842009-04-07T05:46:00.000-07:002009-04-07T05:46:00.000-07:00Hey Ashley,I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, b...Hey Ashley,<BR/>I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, but from what I understand it's completely normal. I think that all of us CDH mom's feel the same way, honestly, Tom and I grieved the loss of Jaime the day of his diagnosis. I still have days wondering if I'm going through all of this in vein. Or are Tom and I selfish for trying to keep Jaime, knowing full well his life is going to start off horrible with no good predictor of how it's going to end! This is such a scary position to be in! I truly admire you and David for your strength. I know it's hard, but you guys are really strong!<BR/>Thank you for allowing us to share in your lives. <BR/>Hang in there,<BR/>Love and prayers for peace and comfort,<BR/>SherylJaime's Worldhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02164450421168557829noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-272166488914759029.post-49539995259820830182009-04-06T23:20:00.000-07:002009-04-06T23:20:00.000-07:00Oh Ashley. You are feeling all the things that an...Oh Ashley. You are feeling all the things that any Mommy who had to let go to early would feel. I wish I could say that it will get better, but I honestly am amazed at how well you are doing. I know that you miss Max. I know what you mean about being in the hospital and just wanting to pick him up and run--I have that thought daily. I want to hold Kaden so bad and the mornings are the worst for me. I want to wake up and feed my baby and get no sleep for a different reason. In the last two days I , too, have questioned whether we did the right thing. It is so hard to see your child fight for their life--the life we gave them. But we gave them the chance at life and we had dreams for them. It is hard to leave the outcome up to God, but Max brought you to me and for that I will be eternally greatful. I do not know if Craig and I could get thru this without your support. I am not just saying that--I mean it from the bottom of my heart. Your and Marion's posts mean so much to us. You are supporting us thru your unimaginable pain and loss. I wish I could bring Max back for you--somehow make it right. You do not deserve not to have him with you--you are and will be a great mommy. No child will ever replace Max for you & David. God will bless you with another baby and it will be a different kind of love--your love for Max is special because of all he has taught you and all of us. I wish we were closer--I know we would be great friends, but I will take what I can get because I need you. I hope your saddness passes soon and you feel Max around you. I know I feel him around Kaden--his "brother" is helping him thru this.<BR/><BR/>I love you and I want you to feel better :)Craig and Kristi Kuehlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01823742035504045016noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-272166488914759029.post-12496100775546829032009-04-06T23:17:00.000-07:002009-04-06T23:17:00.000-07:00I will probably post about this again later b/c as...I will probably post about this again later b/c as soon as I started reading your post I just started crying so I can't think very well right know. I just wanted to let you know that everything you just wrote described how I think I feel also, so I understand how you feel I don't know why this happened to our children and to us, and we will probably never understand why. I don't believe my CDH journey has ended, this journey just went a different route. I am very sorry this happen to you, no mom should lose a child. Joseph passed 3 weeks before Maxton and I still can't sleep well. I don't think I have gone to sleep before 4am. Okay, now I'm rambling.<BR/><BR/>xoxo, <BR/><BR/>~ Carla - Joseph's mom (2.3.09 - 2.26.09)Sky + Carlahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06003369543988347497noreply@blogger.com